I know that I shouldn’t be feeling guilty right now.
I have to work to pay the bills and if I didn’t then we wouldn’t be able to live in a nice house with nice things.
But I do feel guilty – I feel guilty that the children don’t know whether they’re coming or going as I’m having to rely on different friends and family to look after them every day. I feel guilty that I have to go to work and leave them with other people when it’s me who should be spending time with them. I even feel guilty because I’m not giving them the fun Summer Holiday memories that my parents gave me.
So, in an attempt to squeeze as much in as possible after I get home from work around three, we’ve done something every day since they broke up from school last Thursday. We’ve been to the skate park (twice), we’ve been swimming and played at the park. We’ve been to friends houses and had friends round to play. We’ve built a den, baked cakes, had a crafty session and even had a movie night. That’s on top of the music festival I took Miss Frugal to on Sunday!
And you know what? I’m now absolutely exhausted.
So now I feel guilty and I’m tired aswell. And I have to work late tomorrow. And it’s my turn to work Saturday at work which makes this week a six day week.
I could cry right now but I’m not going to because I don’t have time – I have to catch up on the housework I haven’t got time to do during the day!